Thursday, August 27, 2009

Hmmm... Now That is a Good Question!

Well, it was posed to me by a non-military friend what happens after a deployment? I kinda gave the interesting look like where is this coming from and what do you mean? It seems that her sister who married into the military right before the deployment has become great friends with several ladies whose spouses are also deployed. She wanted to know if military wives still stayed close after the guys returned?

Not really knowing why this was a big deal or still why it was being asked, I wasn't really sure how to answer. I have to be honest... I'd like to think that the friends we make are just that friends and even when the men return we are still friends. BUT... A lot less time will probably be spent together. This will make it hard for those whose husbands will return last or later than others. But I don't know??? I don't have a clear answer of what might come? I wish I had an answer. :(

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Dear God,

Let me first tell you thank you! Thank you for giving me a wonderful summer back at home. I have really missed "home" and think it did wonders to be surrounded by so many that love me. It was nice to reconnect with friends that I have known for over half my life. Thank you for keeping her (you know who you she is) in my life for 28 years. Thank you for allowing us to journey together just as we did as children. Thank you for letting us grow. Tomorrow she will start a new phase in her life. God, please bless her, walk with her and keep her safe as she starts her new journey. Please watch over her children and keep them safe as well. And look out for her husband too. Look out for my nephew too who is learning the ins and outs of being so far away from the ones he loves. Help him understand that he is never far from those he loves. Help guide him and keep him safe! Also look out for friends both near and far. You know who they are. :)

It's been a week since I returned home, God. Well duh, you know that, but thank you for giving me time while I drove to church today to count my blessings here as well. It's been a struggle finding my way here, but after this summer God, I see what Your plan was and where You were guiding me. I see that You have given me great people here too, and that at times I overlooked them and judged them and I was wrong for doing so. And while I work to fix that here, please forgive me for thinking they did not care for me. Thank you for giving me the few people here that love me. Thank you for bringing one in particular person into my life that NEVER would have come into my life with out Your guidance. She has been a BLESSING, and I am excited to see what lies ahead for her! Thank you!

And God, please bless my children. They both start school tomorrow. Walk with each of them, and guide them to do their best. Walk with them to make them better people. They both are growing up so fast, Lord. It seems that I blink and one year has passed again. I know this year will have it's stumbles. Bless us as we take each moment for what it is, and to solve each obstacle as it comes.

And please bless M. Keep him safe and God, let him remember that while he does his job he must also consider Your job for him. Help him take each moment as it comes, and help him understand patience. Also take away frustrations and know that with Your help and Your wisdom he can accomplish all things. And let him know that no matter what we love him too. :)

God, one last thing... Please bless my enemies. I've prayed for a few them specifically, and I'm sure there are more that I don't know about. Help them and me to find peace amongst ourselves. To let trivial actions lie for we all are fighting our internal battles.

Thank you God for all that I have and for growing me! I love you! Amen

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Sometimes in Life...

We are reminded that we need to slow down I guess. AND there are angels among us! So here is my story in a nut shell...

Left VA an hour later than planned. This is largely because I had to go pick up a prescription for one of our cats. (A whole story in itself). But then there was trying to fit the last minute things into the van and go through one last time with the contractor to get the step by step on what was left and a time line for each thing... Ugh!

So once on the road, we hit the VA/ NC border and were at stand still on the highway. Seriously the state of NC had a lane closed on a Friday for NO reason! Let me tell you this was tough not only because the kids were restless and the cats too, but I was sad to leave too. As soon as the traffic opened up, the rains came. Not little tiny drops; big FAT heavy can't see type rains. I thought it would burn through quickly as showers that are that intense usually burn out, but it didn't let up until halfway through SC.

Oh... Normally I like Columbia. I have many favorite memories there in my younger days. But it has RUSH HOUR just like any other major city... Sigh... Yet another delay in our trip... Did I mention I was getting the "Are we there yet?" from the kids a hour into our trip??? Tired+ Delayed+ Stress= Not so pleasant day of driving.

So as we crossed into Georgia I was thoroughly excited! This meant we were only 2.5 hours from our destination for day one. Woo Hoo! I watched the GPS count down every tenth of a mile and was proud that we were moving along... This trip seemed sad and lonely. I missed M more coming back then going. I guess it's because I knew what I was going back to as for going home was wide open for all kinds of things. It also seemed like everyone I talked to had their own thing going on and I felt a bit intrusive and a bit unloved. I know I know... Crazy...

It wasn't until I was just past Augusta that all hell broke lose. I have no idea what made me check the control panel, but there it was the check engine light was as bright as one can imagine! I panicked and pulled over to the side of the road. This isn't the first time the check engine light has come one, so I cut off the engine and sat for about 10 minutes to see if it would cool off. No dice! I PANICKED and burst into tears! This immediately panicked C so now two of us were crying. A quick regrouping and I called our motor assistance who I have to say was very nice, but a bit of a ding dong (I mean seriously... If you get a call from a sobbing woman who is obviously scared, do you really need to ask if you should call the police?)

The tow truck company called me back and need specifics like where was I exactly. Well, how int he world do I know??? There were no exits nearby, I hadn't passed any signs and there wasn't a mile marker. (Thank you VA for posting mile markers every 1 mile!) I did the best I could, but the driver only had room for 1 passenger. And he was insistent that we leaving the kids (hello I don't think so!) and the pets on the side of the road. So I broke down and called 911. Yep! I called the police!

The Sheriff shows up to an obviously upset woman and hot children and pets. He was very nice though and waited with me while the tow truck showed up... When the tow truck showed up the driver was insistent about leaving the kids... I was like with who??? And immediately burst into tears... The sheriff told the driver to put the kids and I in his vehicle and that he would put the kitties in his patrol car. (I could have hugged him). Meanwhile we have a debate on where to take the van... Heck if I know I have NEVER lived in GA and how the heck would I know what was around? So the tow driver finally recommends a dealership about 10 miles away. He towed me to the hotel which is right down the street from the dealership and tells me to get there at 7:30 and they will help me out. OH PLEASE LET'S HOPE SO is all I could think.

Meanwhile I arrive at the hotel with my entourage... a Huge Wrecker and the sheriff from the other county. I walk in in tears with my boys and the manager and staff were WONDERFUL! Put me up for 2 nights at a reduced rate and even waived the pet fee. The staff even fed the boys while I checked in! They were FANTASTIC!

So today, I took the van to the dealer and they replaced an emission valve. :) We are back in business for our trip tomorrow. :) So for the remainder of today, we spent it at the pool. :) A good night sleep and we should be back in business!

Oh, but to the locals... We are in the witness protection program.... Long story... Might blog about that one tomorrow! LOL

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Random things....

So tonight as I'm driving in the pouring rain, my mind races with random things... Random things like my Mom, this summer, final good byes, anger, stupid people with no common sense, did I open my mouth too much, my feelings were hurt when, this is the last time I will be in this Walmart parking lot searching for a space to park my car, this will be the last time I see the billboard for the zoo, don't forget, why can't my kids put things away away, will Texas seem more settled now, 3 days in the car, just about everything I bought tonight is sugar.... AND THAT is a lot of thoughts to race through a mind. Sigh...