Close to My Heart Tonight

Sigh... I'm not sure where to begin this blog. I'm just a bunch of feelings and at a loss of for words. Tonight someone close to me got the "visit." The dreaded "visit." I know to night my hubby is in the field, and he should be safe, but I want to grow old with him and he will eventually make it out there... I didn't even know what to say, just started cooking food. My heart is sad tonight...